On being alone:

On and off, i do feel like i needed some time out alone by myself. But it is seldom serious. Usually, a night of reading or surfing the net will suffice and i will go back to being sociable again. But this last few days i have been struggling on the edge of something i can't quite place my finger on. And soon, wanting to take some time out and being alone became a need, not just a want. Which was precisely why i "took off" today. Though i wasn't sure why (there was some irritation mixed up in all these but i doubt that was all), i did not dwell on today. I went to a movie, a sushi dinner, window shopping and a drive without much thoughts on the "whys" and "how comes" or even the future. It was pretty much in the moment. Hence i was able to enjoy the movie, the dinner and the drive. I remain ambivalent over the shopping.

It would have felt strange in usual circumstances. I have always professed to be one that hated watching movies alone but today it was alright. I have not really thought about why it should be alright today, but it was. It was an urge, a compulsion, which till this moment is still lingering in my system. In some ways, i was propelled by it without giving it much thought.